Why can't life be easier? I always fuck things up. This time...I don't know what to do...do I do what I want...or what about 5 other people want me to do? I don't want to risk losing the friendships that have been rebuilt...but then again...I don't want to go through the lonliness all over again.
I wrote this last night...
This whole thing is like a slap in the face. You see it coming...but you don't want to stop it. You want to wait...and see if it'll actually happen. And then it does. It happens so fast...and then the numbness sets in. Then...it's over. You don't feel it anymore.
I don't want our friendship to be a slap in the face...do you?